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:) happy new year to all. though its a tad late to say dis nw. but better den nth rights?

tday din go sch so spent my time blog hopping. den realised ive missed out on alot. mayb im too selfcentered or wad. i realise ive neglected alot of ppl in de past. even til de extent of taking happiness fer granted. 08 gonna b a tough year, and i really hope all of us can survive it.

mei im really glad tat kt and car dotes on u so much. atleast i can fangxin tat u wont b alone. cos i realise de tings tat i can do fer u is so limited. we dont study in same sch plus its alvls dis yr. study is priority nw. and de amt of care n concern n love they shower onto u is smth tat i can nv match up w. no matter how hard i try. i sure miss de times we spent in 07, like happy happy can meet out and jalan jalan. hah. busy gui busy, but we must fix a day to go cut hair alrights?

anw mei, glad tat uve tuned into mugger mode. but im stil in hols mood ):
first day at sch was horrible. it feels like smth is missing in my life. de environment is so unfamiliar. it feels like its first day i step foot in jj. i dun like de feeling though my apg frens r stil arnd. but smths missing. den BOOM! my tcher threw a bomb on us. told us de planned schedule fer 08. sucks can. its like so rush. de ppl r aiming to finish up evrth by jun. JUN!! wahlau. its only 5mths away and thrs so much to cover. wth. im starting to feel stressed up alrdi. i wry fer my future.

de thought of poly life tempts me eh. i really feel like jus withdrawing n join poly. but i cant b selfish. alot of ppl arnd me r telling me stuffs like, its alright i believe u can do it one. juz bear w it and work hard. and tat my parents really wan me b in jc and go uni. tat i cant disappoint them. it set me tinking u knw. i start to qn my point of existence. do i exist so tat i wont disappoint ppl or i wont disappoint myself? i really dunno wad isit tat i want. can someone shed me some light?

regarding de msg u sent me recently, abt de feeling neglected ting.. my listening ear is always here fer u u knw. juz tat i dunno wad else to advise u le. i dun realli like him tats y i cant b objective. n i dun wish to hurt u by telling u stuffs tat u dun wish to hear. tats y i change topic. yupp. hope u uds. its nvr one-sided, pls dun tink dis way. cos i also care abt u like u care fer me. jus tat our way of expressing love is different. sy's num i gave u le, so in case u cant find me jus contact him directly ok? cos i wan b thr fer u even though my hp nt in my hand.

pardon me fer my moodswings n stubborn character. i'l try to change. but thrs no guarantee tat i'd succeed. so u shud learn ways to tackle it! haha. n i hope u wont mind sharing me w sy n apg. cos my world officially revolves arnd u 3 now. ur such a nice gurl, i knw u sure uds one la!

lastly, cheers to our frenship! its a new year. 07 is gone. time to put aside de memories, wheda its happy or sad, so tat thr'l b space fer new and better ones to come (:

- memories cant b created alone. SO! LETS CREATE THEM TGT :D